Over at Talent Egg, Krysty Rydz has been discussing what she calls a Young Life Crisis, that scary, scary moment when you realize that you’re almost at the point where you have to enter the Real World, and may not find that job you’ve always thought would be waiting.

Now, I’ve never been afraid of the Real World – I’m pretty excited about going out, earning money, being completely independent, and doing something that is rewarded in money or its own impact, rather than letter grades which are, let’s face it, pretty irrelevant in the long run. Then again, maybe the reason I’m not afraid is that for me, the Real World is still a ways away – at least 4 or 5 years, if all goes to plan. And the fact that, after all, the Academia brand of Real World isn’t all that different from school.

My crisis has been slightly different. If you’ve been reading my blog (not that you have… that’s ok), you’ll know I’m pretty big on Academia being useful; for me, it’s just a waste of grant money if it doesn’t say something new in concrete terms.

…which, I’ve been coming to realize with a shudder, is a pretty hypocritical ideal for a medievalist. Or is it?

That’s the question I’m stuck on. The answer I keep coming up with is that if your research is good enough, it’s useful. Genuinely new research in medieval studies may never help children in Africa or revamp Canadian diplomacy, but it can and does have real and gigantic effects on the field. And, as my roommate has pointed out, the fact that it contributes to a society that is willing to fund things which do not have a utilitarian application is use in itself.

But these justifications seem a bit thin when I’m sitting here tweaking a paper on a monument most people have never heard of, or on dead Anglo-Saxon infants. I love what I’m studying, but does anyone else care?

And should I even care that no one else cares? Is it enough to contribute to your own field? Does everything have to be utilitarian and tangible? What about the fact that, as my roommate points out, every drop of research, however esoteric, contributes to the general knowledge-horde of a society? Or that every drop of research, however esoteric, may have real-world effects that are intangible?

I guess what it comes down to is whether it’s enough for research to be new and concrete. How utilitarian does it have to be, to not be a waste of grant money?

That’s what I can’t figure out. I keep having visions of Reason coming and closing the gates to the Middle Ages, telling us that everything that we need to know has already been found out, and none of the rest matters.

Latin text from the Lindisfarne Gospels

This has amazed me for a while. Although Latin is a dead language, the continuity of teaching has never been broken. Everyone who has ever been able to read Latin has learned it from a teacher – unlike most other dead languages it never had to be deciphered.

That’s pretty incredible. It means that the little nuances of the language have never been lost. Of course, some aspects have filtered out over time and have had to be rediscovered, but on the whole it’s been transferred organically, however remote it may be now. I wonder how much of it has really been passed down from teacher to student through the centuries.

The picture above is from some of the Latin text of the Lindisfarne Gospels.